Being away from Cody is really hard. After having around for a good 3 months and then suddenly I have to sleep wihtout him, I wake up and don't see his face. It really hard. Living ten hours away from him really sucks.

I go back in May, come back at the end of june and then... I don't know when I'll be going back. Or when he'll want me back. The only reason I even left is so he could have his space, I understand he needs it. It just really sucks that I have to leave for months at a time because we live so far away from each other.

And it makes me question if this'll even work out. I love him more then I've ever loved anyone. But this is already wearing down on me. I asked my dad today if he thought this relationship would last and said flat out that he doesn't think so. And I can't decide one way or another. I want it to but I don't want to feel so much pain just so it'll work.

Cody can handle it so much better then me. It like doesn't seem to affect him one bit and I envy him so much for it. If I could go on living my life without this pain and enjoy life then this would be so much easier but I don't know how to do this. I wish I just had the strength and patience to work through this distance and time apart from him.

Being in love is to troublesome sometimes.

On a lighter note...



I want this.

Its been forever since I even cared to update this thing. My life took a huge turn, I'm in pennsylvania, I'm dating the most amazing boy I've ever met though he lives in michigan. I have actual fucking friends here too. My dad found an amazing woman and she's actually going to take care of us. Things are actually doing so good for me.

My RP community is doing great. I saw Avenged again recently. With P roach and god it was... orgasmic. And I saw it with my boyfriend, it was like real freedom.

I have to go back home at the end of the month and then maybe get my life a little more sorted out. For right now its like a rollercoaster ride and I'm not ready to get off.

I'll try to update more.

Title: Life As We Knew It; Ch. 2
Fandom/Pairing: A7x, Johnny/Matt but mostly GEN
Author: playin_myblood
Rating: R
POV: Johnny’s/ Diary style
Summary: “When a meteor hit’s the moon and knocks it closer in orbit with the earth, nothing will ever be the same.” How Avenged Sevenfold survives.
Disclaimer: I do not own A7x or their friends. I sort of don’t own this whole idea either.
Warnings: Death.
A/N: This idea comes from the book Life As We Knew It by Susan Beth Pfeffer. it’s a great book, its in the teen section of any Barnes N’ Nobles. It’s the same basic idea but told in an almost completely different way. Comments make me happy.

Previous Chapters
One.



Chapter Two

Ya know. I dunno if anyone else is on Avenged MB, you know the message board.

But I'm getting some shit when I try and get on it. Is the website working for anyone else?!

Because seriously. This is depressing and a big disruption to my day to day things to do.

-_- Help.

Title: Deal; Part Two
Author: playin_myblood
Pairing: Tony Stark (Iron Man)/Matt/Brian
Summary: Tony Stark knows what he wants and he will find a way to get it. Even if he has to make a deal.
Rating: R
Disclaimer: Marvel owns Tony Stark *sobs*. Matt and Brian own themselves. There for I only own the idea.
Author's Note: I've been real busy today. I tried to get this posted like 6 hours earlier. But oh well, here it is now!

( 'Dude, that’s fuckin’ Tony Stark, you dumb shit.' )

Its 12 am Wednesday June 18th and that means ITS MY BIRTHDAY.

*blink*

I think someone got on my livejournal.

Because I'm automatically signed in, ya know, I had my shit save dbecause no one in my house is going to get on my computer and go to livejournal.

But I signed in last night. I mean, I typed in the web address and it had me signed out. -_-

That bothers me. Alot.

Title: Snow
Author: playin_myblood
Fandom-Pairing: A7x, Matt/Brian
Rating: R
Summary: Nicola Beth Haner, September 19th 2008. One Shot.
Warnings: AU. Werewolves. for those of you who don't like the sci-fi type stories, beware. :D
A/N: I'm not sure with this idea came from but I'm a big fan of werewolves and I think this is one of my better attempts at a werewolf fic. Reviews are awesome. :D

( Snow )

Title: Deal; Part One
Author: playin_myblood
Pairing: Tony Stark (Iron Man)/Matt/Brian
Summary: Tony Stark knows what he wants and he will find a way to get it. Even if he has to make a deal.
Rating: R
Disclaimer: Marvel owns Tony Stark *sobs*. Matt and Brian own themselves. There for I only own the idea.
Author's Note: So... the_staci demanded me to write this diea I came up with. And since I know I'm not the only one who thinks Tony Stark is incredibly hot in the movie Iron Man, I agreed that I would write it. So this goes out to Staci. She's awesome.

( 'Jarvis, good morning.' )

Title: Roadtrip
Author: playin_myblood
Fandom: A7x
Pairing: Matt/Johnny
Rating: PG 13
Summary: Prologue
Disclaimer: Don't own, not mine.
A/N: This one took me a while to write. Lets hope the next chapter won't. Please enjoy :D

Previous Chapters:
Chapter One

( Chapter Two )

Title: Raised Demons.
Author: playin_myblood
Fandom: Avenged Sevenfold
Pairing: Jimmy/Johnny a little bit of Zack/Jacoby and possibly Matt/Brian.
Rating: R
Summary: Fallen Angels fall from heaven and down to earth when they disobey God. The same thing happens in hell, only they have a different name, Raised Demons. This is a story of one of those Demons trying to make it in a world he no longer knows. AU bigtime.
Disclaimer: Don't own, this is completely fake.
Warnings: Violence and angst but I'm sure more will be added.
Author's Note: So the second chapter, hope you guys like it and comment it. And I've had this written up for a while and forgot to post it. But here it is now. :]

Previous Chapters

Prologue
Chapter One

( Raised Demons, Chapter Two. )

OMG :D

So, the voting will eb done on saturday on avenged_las? I already read all of them and HOLY FUCK there is an amazing fic ont here that totally puts mine to compeletely SHAME. :O

READ THEM AND VOTE!

avenged_las

:D

(does that count as pimping out the comm? ^^;; ))

So... Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows. May be Spoilers beware.

( Read more... )

please give your blessing and luck onto his next life.